Last List of 2011.

1. Did you do something this year that you haven't done before? I don't remember

2. Did you fulfil any of your New Year's Resolutions? I managed to fulfil my academic resolutions in Octoboer and also got admitted to University for Spring 2012! Very proud of myself for accomplishing these achievements!

3. Did any friend of yours have a baby this year? Actually, three colleagues from work, two boys & one girl ♥ Congratulations A, M & N for your little miracles!

4. Did somebody that you held near die this year? No

5. Did you travel abroad this year? If yes, to what countries/cities? El Gouna, Egypt (July), Bornholm, Denmark (October)

6. Pick a date from this year that you shall always remember. 14 September of 2011

7. What was your greatest success 2011? Getting admitted to Örebro University

8. What was your greatest mistake 2011? Surely I have made many but the importance lies in learning from them for as the process of it makes your heart and character grow.

9. Have you been ill or hurt yourself during the year? I can't recall any mayor accidents this year but I have had a few colds during the autumn/winter.

10. What can be seen as to be your best bargain this year? My red leather jacket!

11. Do you have any special memory from 2011 that made you feel really happy? One of the happiest moments took place at Kolmården (Scandinavia's largest Wildlife Park) outside Stockholm. Unforgettable visit that I will carry close to my heart. Truly the short weekend was one of the happiest days of this year.

12. What artist/songs will always remind you of 2o11? Katy Perry "Firework", The Cardigans "Communication", Melissa Horn, "Du är nog Den", Brad Paisley feat. Alison Krauss "Whiskey Lullaby", Keith Urban "Somebody Like You", Sleeping at Last "Turning Page"

13. Did you experience yourself happier or more sad than you have been previous years? I have to say a bit of both, it started out well but I've had a few low peaks as well during the fall, yet I'm looking forward to the New Year and hoping for a better start!

14. What do you wish you could have done better during the year? Taken better care of the beautiful people I feel blessed to have in my surroundings both family and friends. I especially want to apoligize to two close friends of mine for not being there for them when they needed me. Forgive me, my aim is to get better at this next year and hopefully we'll catch up!

15. What do you wish you could have done less during the year? Felt less selfish and thought more of the people around me. Complained less over smaller matters and instead felt thankful for the wonderful life I have been given!

16. How will you celebrate Christmas? With my beloved family members ♥ It's a tradition.

17. Did you fall in love during the year? Yes

18. Favourite TV show? "Downtown Abbey"

19. Best novel you read this year? Shame on me, I've simply not had the time..

20. Biggest musical discovery during the year? Country music! Alison Krauss, Brad Paisley, Keith Urban, Jake Owen, Luke Bryan, Taylor Swift and many other artists.

21. How did you celebrate your birthday during 2011? I turned 23 on a Wednesday this year which meant party with my favourite ones! I also had a calm dinner with my family later that week.

22. How would you describe your style during the year? I feel like I have found a style that suits my personality and body. I have come to realize that I appreciate a classic style rather than the "trendy". One has also realized the importance of having certain "base garments" made out of a better quality than rather having ten t-shirts of a poor cotton mix. It's good for the personal economy and is a better way of treating nature.

23. What made you feel good during the year? Spending time with my family/friends

24. Hottest male/female celebrity during 2009? Male: Dan Stevens : Reese Witherspoon

25. Did you miss somebody over a long period of time? (Minimum one month) Yes

26. Have you made any new resolutions for 2010? Yes, in fact I have..

Christmas Card.

Picture: Collages made by me, pictures taken with my iPhone (click to enlarge!)

Here are a few pictures from Christmas Eve which I spent with my family and from the big celebration night at home after I got the great news that I got admitted to the University! I had so much fun both evenings and truly I feel blessed to have such an amazing family! Honestly I don't know what I would do without them! I love you mom, dad & my best brothers! ♥

Lunch time.

The last couple of days my family and I have been eating leftovers from the big Christmas Dinner. Swedish meatballs, herring, ham, beet root sallad and many other delicious dishes. Today I'm actually not going to eat any of the named dishes above but instead do a classic and favourite dish of mine which is perfect for those lazy or sick days - chicken soup & pancakes! Yummy! ;)

Best Gift.

Picture: Collage made by me (pictures found through Google)

The best gift/news I could receive this year!! I still pinch myself in the arm every morning to remind myself that it's really happening. You have no idea of how long I've been longing & waiting for this moment and yet it's here now!

I'm speechless yet so full of joy! Thank you mom, dad, B & E for always believing in me ♥ I Love you!! Looking forward to my 3 years that are to come!! :)

Winter Vacations.

I've had a few days off enjoying my winter vacations therefore the absence here in the blog. Christmas is officially over and I can't believe tomorrow's New Year's Eve..! Anyway I'm happy to say that I've spent these days with my family & friends and truly we've all had a great time. My beloved family members and amazing friends gave me the best Christmas gifts, practical, useful & beautiful ♥ I love you all!

Besides that I also have some bad & good news. I'll start with the bad, unfortunately I received yet another cold a few days ago and so my poor and sore nose is all red again :( I have lost track of the number of times that I've been sick this fall, awful but I hope to get better soon! Now to the good news!

On the 27th of December, 01:03 PM I received the great news that I got admitted to the University of Örebro that I applied for January 2012!! The joy, the tears and excitement I felt that moment completely blew my mind! And so I've also been celebrating it with my family on both Tuesday & Wednesday this week with champagne and lots of love!

I still find it hard to believe but truly I feel so blessed and yes it was a bit of luck as well. Anyway I did manage to take pictures from both Christmas Eve and the big celebration from Wednesday evening so I'll try to make a collage and post them here later, so stay tuned! Have a great day!

Merry Christmas.

Pictures: We heart it - 1 & 2

To all my readers in Sweden, USA, India, Netherlands, United Kingdoms, Portugal, Greece, Croatia, Italy, Turkey

I would like to say:

♥ Buone Feste Natalizie ♥ Christmas-e- Shoma Mobarak ♥ Feliz Natal ♥ Feliz Navidad ♥ God Jul ♥ Kala Christouyenna ♥ Merry Christmas ♥ Noeliniz Ve Yeni Yiliniz Kutlu Olsun ♥ Shub Naya Baras ♥ Sretan Bozic ♥

Holding On to You.

I thought it would be easy, getting over you and walking away from what we used to be. You tried to convince me it was the right thing to do, still why does every bone and every piece of my soul tells me no & that this is all wrong? I could never imagine that after this short time, it would break all that was left deep inside of me.

A wise man once said, "Never give up on someone you can't go a day without thinking about" and I made myself that promise to always believe and have faith in you. For I have and always will care about you, still hoping that one day maybe you will see how good we are for each other. Still, I'm lost in all this confusion not knowing what to do.

I thought it would be easy, getting over you and walking away from what we used to be. Instead it turned out to be the hardest decision I have ever made and it's been haunting me like a bad dream every night I go to sleep. If only I could press rewind and go back in time, maybe we could have done something different and found a way for your heart to love me. I find myself still holding on to you. Maybe I'm not ready to let you go.

White Winter.

Picture: We heart it

I won't stop believing, longing and wishing for a white Christmas but to be honest I'm starting to get a bit nervous. I mean we only have three more days?! :( I'll cross my fingers and hope for the best then I guess the weather god takes care of the rest! If we won't have a white winter hopefully I'll have a white birthday ;)

Today's Quote.

Source: mystandards

The World's Greatest Team.

Picture: Private - taken with my iPhone (Good bye drink with my friends from work last Friday at Hotel Rival)

Picture: Private - taken with my iPhone (I baked cupcakes and a delicious chocolate cake for my last day at work. I also received these beautiful flowers & a generous gift from the best team!)

Last Sunday was my official last day at work, I resigned from Zara since I'm planning to start University in Örebro later this spring. Since I have to move to this new city I simply couldn't stay there but I'm hoping I will be able to return again to work during summer.

So this is the reason for my absence here, last Friday my friends and I met up for a good bye drink at one of my favourite bars in town, Hotel Rival. We had a great evening and talked & laughed a lot, just like we always do both at work & when we hang out afterwards. Truly I've met so many beautiful people who have become close friends after working with them for 1,5 years. It's been such a great experience being able to go to work & leave work with a great smile and it's all because of them!

I also surprised them with homemade vanilla and chocolate cupcakes with frosting and a big delicious chocolate cake as seen on the second collage above last Sunday at work. Every crumble was eaten and I'm glad they all enjoyed it! After all they've given me it was the smallest thing I could do. Sunday was very sad and at the evening meeting my boss P said the most beautiful things and the entire team surprised me (!) with flowers and an adorable silver bracelet! Thank you all for everything, truly you are The World's Greatest Team ♥ I love you all!!

Tired Tuesday.

Mood: A bit sleepy, didn't sleep well tonight due to nightmares
Done: Breakfast (check), heading out for a run soon
Plans: Babysit in the afternoon and meet up with friends from work

Looking at: My beautiful flowers on my desk
Listening to: Nause - Made of
Reading: Nothing at the moment
Drinking: A glass of water
Eating: I just had breakfast but I'll have eggs & my favourite soup!
Best: It's only four days to Christmas ♥ Hanging out with friends
Worst: Still having trouble sleeping & having all these nightmares
Weather: Very cold outside and very little sunshine

Coincidence.

Picture: We heart it

Could it be a coincidence that my mood inside and weather outside have been synchronized this week? Well it certainly seems like it. Tonight is no exception. It's just tears and rain. There must be an angel who can feel or see my pain.

Emotional Evening.

I apologize for my absence this week but I've had a full schedule busy exercising, baby-sitting, hanging out with friends from work but I have also not been feeling well deep within. Truth be told, I feel unstable, emotional and hurt. Literally it feels as if a big piece from the heart has been ripped out, yes it does hurt in every heartbeat.

There is no saying that life will always be certain and that it will follow the same patterns, easy for us to follow and to understand. No, on the contrary life will always be uncertain, one day everything you touch starts to bloom the other it simply withers away.

I will probably never receive any answers to the questions I've carried in my head this last couple of days. If two people can't solve them together, then there is not the slightest chance for me to do so neither. They say that time heals all wounds, to one extent I do believe that to be true. Still, there are certain memories that will always remain the same.

You will always have a special place inside my heart and this is my confession, I've loved you from the very start. I will keep you in my prayers and hope that you one day will find true love & someone to take good care of. Remember, you've got a friend in me & I will be there until the end ♥

Christmas Dinner with Work.

Picture: Private - taken by me & R - collage made by me (click to enlarge!)

Here are some pictures from the fun Christmas dinner we had at work. They served very good food and later we danced until my feet almost went numb (!).. Thank you everybody for an amazing evening, a night to remember! ;)

Dream within a Dream.

You may not see it, but I'm still hurting. For this anxiety I'm feeling deep inside is teasing my sensitive stomach not to mention the reason for the far too many sleepless nights. I can't seem to understand what I've done wrong, I've tried so hard not to let you down, I've been trying to give you nothing else but honest love and still, it's not working?

True love can only be measured by real actions and not by words that are spoken. All I ask for is for you to see me, show me you listen to me, respect me, treat me by showing that you understand that I've got feelings, reach out to me, show me how much you truly care and comfort me when I need you there and if it's not too much to ask, please decide whether if you want or don't want to love me? One thing you must understand, a part of me will always be broken.

Silver tears come streaming down my face as I realized that my heart has failed. Somehow I'd hoped that you would be more certain by now after that I've given you some time. Maybe our ship already sailed...

Angel Wings.

Picture: Private - taken by me with my iPhone

I am so sorry, I completely forgot to show you the two beautiful bracelets that I ordered a few weeks ago! These two are from tintinstyle and their brand stylesnob. Truly they do amazing leather pieces!

There is no doubt how much I love my golden angel wings since I've been wearing it a lot. The perfect every day bracelet that goes with everything. It also reminds me a lot of a necklace I've wanted for a very long time that still hasn't moved in yet but one day I hope! :)

Soft Sunday.

Good evening! I trust you've had a great weekend? :) Well so have I which is also the reason for why I'm feeling completely exhausted tonight. It's been two very busy days at work now that everyone seems to be out looking for Christmas presents.

Last night was so much fun though! The dinner was superb despite the fact that we had to eat in a hurry (!), some people turned out to be very late and so the dinner had to be delayed. Sad :( Still we did have a good time and I danced until my feet went numb!

No wonder everybody was sooo tired at work today, ha ha! We've must have looked like a bunch of zombies with grey bags underneath our eyes and with no make-up on. But that's ok on soft sundays ;) Other than that I don't have that much planned for tonight, still I think I'll make myself some hot cocoa and see a feel-good-film in bed :) I wish you all a cosy evening as well!

Missing You.

Picture: We heart it

♥

TGIF.

With barely two weeks for Christmas and still no sign of any snow (!) I'm still working on holding my Christmas mood on top! I'm planning on baking my own ginger bread house & other cookies next week, guess who's going to be pretty busy? ;) But it will be fun!

However, tomorrow evening is the big Christmas dinner/party at work so I'm sure it will be a spectacular evening since they've announced that the theme for this year's party is party/glamour! I'm sure everybody will look absolutely amazing and so therefore I'll try to take lots of pictures!

Anyway it's been a rather long day so I think I should try to get some sleep. We've had a storm here the last two days now with lots of rain & strong winds blowing outside. One of many reasons for why I slept poorly last night. Hopefully I'll sleep better tonight. Sweet dreams

An early Christmas Gift.

Picture: Taken by me with my iPhone (collage made by me) Click to enlarge!

The world's greatest mother who also happens to be my mom just surprised me yesterday with an early Christmas gift (!). One of my favourite stores in Stockholm is a small shop called American Classics for they have every little detail to create a classic & traditional American home. Therefore a big smile was spread on my face when I saw the beautiful wrapping ;)

It was a cute little perfume bottle from Lisbeth Dahl, a danish brand that specialize in interior design and accesoaries. I've always wanted such a old fashioned little bottle to have on the shelf in my bathroom cupboard. Thank you so much mom!! I promise it will be taken out every day! ♥

Tonight's Quote.

Picture: My standards

Miracle.

Picture: Google

It's been a great day with plenty of good news! As I wrote on the "daily list" below, my eldest cousin who lives in Miami, USA had a beautiful baby boy last night! Congratulations C & J for your little miracle, I'm so looking forward to see more pictures! God bless the three of you ♥

Around midday I also received an e-mail that confirmed my application for Örebro University and my upcoming studies starting in January 2012. I have qualified, still I'm the 1st reserve on their standby list so if any of the admitted students change their minds I'll get in! There's always someone that changes his or hers application and therefore I'm positive about it! By the 27th of December I'll know for sure. Cross your fingers for me please!

A List on a Thursday.

Mood: Anxious and nervous, I'm expecting news today
Done: Slow breakfast in front of the TV & relaxing
Plans: Babysit in the afternoon and movie night at home

Looking at: The lovely sunshine outside my bedroom window
Listening to: The radio - Christmas channel
Reading: Nothing at the moment
Drinking: A glass of water
Eating: I just had breakfast but I'll have chicken for lunch later
Best: My cousin gave birth to a healthy baby boy last night! ♥
Worst: Stomach ache due to my nerves about today's news
Weather: Nothing but sunshine & cool temperatures

My Love.

Picture: Private - A & I at Kolmården, 2011-10-01

Nobody said it was going to be easy. Still, I gave you my word to always be open, honest & faithful. Please hear me out and do not judge me, even though some of the things might sound cheesy.

Remember, love sees everything; the good, the bad, the strengths and the flaws, yet still chooses to love. I often think of the first time I fell for you and the fact that I haven't gotten up since. You took my breath away with your smiling eyes just like the northern stars high up above.

It's always been you, I've known it from the very start and somehow I will always be your biggest fan. What matters the most is the way you make me laugh, the way you say my name, the way you make me feel safe, the sound of your voice, the way you make funny faces and the way you smile. Maybe it's because you make me feel things that no one else in this world can.

If it makes you happy, do it. If it doesn't, then don't. All I know for certain is that my body, heart and soul wants to be with you. At all times, no matter what. I promise to be by your side and to show you, you're so much better than you know. I believe in you and always will. I care so much about you, my love.

Terrific Tuesday.

Bonjour mes amis! I've had a slow start today after yesterday's celebration, I'm sure my dad was a bit tired as well! We had a fantastic evening so it was definitely worth it! All the great food and delicious desserts.. I better head out on a long power walk today ;)

Other than that I'll be off to work in the afternoon for inventory, hopefully it will all go well and we can go home early since last time turned out to be a complete catastrophe (!). Anyway I'm happy that the sun decided to show up today and we even got a few very thing snowflakes last night!

Time to kick start this Terrific Tuesday! Not to mention how much I long for tonight since I'll be heading over to A's place after work for a movie night at his place. Enough said it's time to head outdoors, have a great day everybody! Later!

Happy Birthday!

Picture: Private -collage made by me

Today is a very special day as it is my dad's 65th birthday! We just came home from celebrating him with a delicious dinner at a restaurant called Grill.

He didn't expect it and we totally surprised him with the dinner and also when we came home with a chocolate pavlova birthday cake! Happy Birthday again dad, I hope you've had a great Birthday, we love you!! ♥

Never fully dressed without a Smile.

Picture: We heart it

Working Saturday.

Mood: Exhausted due to a long day at work
Done: Work all day and came home two hours ago
Plans: Nothing special planned for tonight

Looking at: The burning candles on my desk
Listening to: Sara Evans - Need to be Next to You
Reading: Nothing at the moment
Drinking: A hot cup of my favourite Lipton tea
Eating: I just had dinner and no more snacks for today ;)
Best: I've finally learned how to play a X-mas song on the guitar!
Worst: The long day that gave me a headache in the afternoon
Weather: Cold, windy & rain, why couldn't it be snow? :(

Tonight's Song.

Lady Antebellum - Just A Kiss

"Lyin' here with you so close to me

It's hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe
I'm caught up in this moment, caught up in your smile

I've never opened up to anyone
So hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms
We don't need to rush this, let's just take it slow

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
And I don't want to mess this thing up
No, I don't want to push too far

Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby, I'm alright with just a kiss goodnight

I know that if we give this a little time
It'll only bring us closer to the love we wanna find
It's never felt so real, no, it's never felt so right..."

Happy Friday.

Good evening to you all, I trust most of you share the same enthusiasm as I do over the fact that the weekend is finally around the corner and that yet another week has gone towards its end. I've been working out a lot, 5 days in a row this week (!) and so I'm looking forward to two days of rest.

Besides that I've spent time with family & friends and yesterday A invited me to go and see the big concert called "OnStage Stars n' Stripes" with various famous artists such as Jill Johnson, Kate Ryan, Darin, Peter Johansson, Sanne Salomonsen. The theme was American music such as western & rock'n'roll. It turned out to be a great success and A & I had lots of fun enjoying the show :)

Anyway I'm going to make myself a nice cup of tea and lighten some candles & just enjoy a soft evening at home. Tomorrow will be a long day with work all day so I better get some sleep tonight. I wish you all a Happy Friday!

Snowflakes.

Picture: Private - taken in the photobooth of my laptop, edited in Picasa

I've found a brilliant photo editing programme for my laptop, it's called Picasa (very similar to Photoshop but a lot easier!). One can edit background, reduced "red eyes" on photos and so much more. To download it click here!

This feature I used above with the beautiful snowflake frame belongs to the premium version which costs around 3$ every month. I'm thinking about "upgrading" since I love to work with images and other photography features. Perfect now that I have Christmas cards to fix!

Welcome December.

The 1st of December is officially here with 23 days left until Christmas Eve and 30 days before New Year's Eve. This is according to me the most beautiful time of the year! :)

2011 has gone so fast yet I believe it's a good thing for I've had so much fun! I've met people that have become dear friends, not to mention how my family & friends have helped me grow as a woman, daughter, sister & friend.

I believe that this is the time of the year when one should reflect upon all those things that we normally forget to think about, the small things that in the end matters the most in life, friendship, health & love.

Learn to appreciate all that you are, the loving people around you and the life that has been given to you. Learn to be grateful for big & little things one may be given & show respect to the people around you no matter age or gender.

Most important above all, love. Do not hesitate in showing the people you truly care about how much they mean to you. Remember, no one is born with the gift called "mind reading", it's all about learning how to express yourself with words & through actions in the everyday life. We all need to hear it from time to time, take good care of your beloved ones ♥